it's been ages since i last update?
nowadays have been very stressful.
lots of problems, especially my family.
parents disallow this and that.
this can be quite vexing.

kept worrying about my O level results.
worry that i cant even get into a poly.
i am so afraid that God will not bless me.
i know i'm thinking the wrong way,
but i'm extremely anxious and worried.
maybe my expectations are really high?
that i'm afraid to face the truth?
seriously speaking, if i really really cant make it.
i would just kill myself, feeling so disppointed with myself.
maybe i would go to NAFA and try it out.
hopefully i would not do very badly for my O level.

i'm jobless.
waiting for this retail shop to call me.
hope that i can get this job.
pretty flexible.
i'm broke, seriously broke.
never never let my mum knows about my bank account money.
if not, i'll be dead.
regretted to take my atm card from her.

cg is difficult to plan nowadays.
not everybody can attend cg.
it's difficult for everybody to get together.
individual of them got their own things going on.
really dun noe what to do.
tried to get their schedule and plan well the cg days and times,
but still, not everyone can make it.
dun noe am i able to lead them well.
somehow i feel it's my fault.
feel so bad that i'm not doing a good job.
i'm little tired.

God, you've got to help me.
let me have a peaceful heart and mind.
not to worry so much and think too much.
this is stressing me up.
pls help me.