why cant i be more focused?
i am damn angry with myself.
just 8 questions and cant complete a number of them.
i just dun like the feeling of not being able to do my UT.
my heart keeps on "aching" and
i keep thinking that i cant do anything about the UT anymore.
i just feel like crying.
i just hate the feeling of not being able to finish test or exam.
feel so useless.
like i lost a tiny hope of being able to at least get some marks for individual questions.
i can just fail the whole thing. i hate to fail,
especially my exams or test.
it makes me feel lousy.
i know i should not feel this way.
but i just couldnt help it.
getting better grades are quite important to me.
i just feel like an failure when i dun achieve good grades.
seriously, i know that i got a big issue on being contented or setting high goals for myself.
now, i just hoping that i am able to take it well when i know my grades.
how i wish, i would retake all over again.

hello, school was damn slack.
haha. everybody left accept 8 people.
and due the the number of people,we have no presentation.
and facilitator just did his 6th presentation.
felt so sorry and bad for the facilitator,
he was trying so hard during the first meeting to help the class.
den some went off at first break and some second break.
den in the end left like 8 people in class trying to work the problem out.
at the end of the class, he said something like;
"it's not that your class cannot do, just that they give up easily."
facilitator sound like he is disappointed and sad that he did do his job.
anyways, managed to understand the vb codes and learn more about vb.
i think i should try to work myself with the codes.
so that maybe i can learn more and understand better.
dun really want to take asha for granted.

Went to Asha's hse and had fish bee hoon for dinner.
Used laptop for a while then went home to take my clothes for tomorrow.
Came back to Asha's hse and had supper.
going to turn SO FAT.
keep eating and eating.
feel like doing some exercises.
it doesnt seem like i can slim down anymore,
my weight has been maintaining for quite sometime,
but i'm going to be underweightand i still look FAT.
cant be anorexic cos i will faint.
dun know how can i be more skinner without those flabs. :(

tmr is bball training, can say i'm excited and worried.
excited cos i still like bball a lot,
worried cos my dribbling and handling of ball SUCKS.
feel so bad and keep blaming myself thatwhy cant i do it better?
ok, hopefully tmr i will improve.